Pushover

There are days when I feel like myself and my family are gigantic pushovers.  One: Why does everyone assume that is ok to make arrangements and change them and it will be ok with us and when we have other plans they are mad but won't change to accommodate us.  Two: Make plans with one of the kids' mom and then decide to include us in it afterwards. It is a little bit of burden on us because this child lives on hour away and our routine changes when she spends the night but nobody really cares about that but me I guess. Three: I don't want to go to Florida to help my sister out because she can't handle her newborn and toddler. She new her husband travels for work when she got pregnant. I am very annoyed by my mom and my sister. My mom because she is trying to make me fell guilty because I am not going so she thinks she has too. No she doesn't my sister can learn to deal on her own. I did this one month after Ethan was born for almost a year.  My sister because she thinks she can't do it. If this was what her thought was prior to this, then why the hell did she even get pregnant. Done with the rant!!!!

Forever since I have been on here

It has been forever since I have been on here. I am going to start with the most recent events and go backwards. I have decided that I wanted to lose weight. As of today, I have lost 20 lbs, 2in around my waist, and 3 in from my hips. I am very excited about this. I have set little goals in place to hit my main goal. I would like to get down to 130 pounds. My first goal is 170. Only 10 pounds to this goal but I have a feeling this will be tough. I have decided that now I am eating healthy I have to start exercising. So I am now adding 10-12 minutes a day on the treadmill.  People ask why I want to do this their are two reasons: 1) so i can keep on with Ethan and 2) I want to look I did when I married Jeff.

At the end of November, 3 teens in our community died in a car accident.  This my whole family so much. 2 of the boys were very close to my oldest. It is very weird to have kids in our house and not to see their faces in the group. Jayson is having a hard time dealing with it. He always fought the rules but now it is even worse. Last night was News Years and we went out to dinner but had to come home because he felt he was entitled to go out. I thought my husband was going to kill him. We haven't been out in months. The counselor says it going to get worse before gets better but I think it is already there. I can't wait for real life to hit Jayson on the head and he wants us to bail him out. He takes us for granted and expects to do whatever and gives us no credit or concern. It annoys me to no end. That is the end of that rant.

Runaways

Jayson ran away last night. When I went to wake him up this morning, there was a note and no Jayson. That is by far the worse thing to find in the morning so far.  I was so scared. I ran up the stairs yelling at Jeff that Jayson was gone and looking in all the rooms hoping that he was just joking but he wasn't.  We had no idea where to look, we called his mom and she said that she talked to him on facebook and he said he was thinking about it. She said he would go to Colton's if he did. Jeff went to the cops and that is where he was. I have never been so scared in my life.

He has been getting in trouble sneaking out of the house and getting caught smoking. So Jeff took his phone and grounded him. He doesn't understand why we are being so harsh. We are trying to make him understand that his choices effect him and the family. We want him to be a successful adult and right now he isn't doing that.

Blizzard 2011

So the weather outside is miserable. It is also Alyssa's birthday today. Now, I get the she isn't with Stephenie and all but why do you have to make people go out in this stuff. I understand you want to see her and all but it took us forever to get home. The wind is horrible and there are places where you can't even see.  As I am sitting in the living room I can hear the wind and I am glad that I am sitting in my living room now. They are calling for almost 2 feet of snow and 4 foot drifts.  Yikes.  I wonder how bad it is really going to get.

Hubby Back Surgery

My husband is have major back surgery on Dec 10th.  I am glad he is having it because he is in some much pain.  I am just scared for him and worried what can happen during or after the surgery.  I am also worried how I will handle the house, kids, work and still be with my husband.

Teaching

Everybody thinks teaching is so easy and but hate to tell you it is not. I have been teaching 5 years in this school district and every year we have new hoops to jump through. We have parents who except us to make a phone call when there kid gets a little bit behind.  I think that parents don't always understand we have a life outside of school.  Just my little pet peeve of the day.

What a week!!

My week started last Sat/Sun when Jayson decided to not use his brain and get in trouble with the cops.  However, he did what he was suppose to and the cops decided to use his statement against another kid and he didn't get arrested.  We also have an 18 yr old living with us for indefinite period of time.  We spent Sat night, all day Sunday, and Monday waiting to see what would happen.  Thank goodness as I said earlier they are going to use him as a witness. On Tuesday, I get a call from Jeff and his back went out. I had to go get him from work and take him to the er to get a shot.  While I was with him, the teacher that is suppose to be in study hall with me never showed up and my study hall was left alone for 30 minutes.  On Thursday, I am trying to get stuff printed for my meetings on Friday and couldn't get a printer to work at school if my life depended on it.  So by the time Thursday night got here, my migraine had started and Friday morning it was horrible. I get into my meeting Friday afternoon and thought I had everything and of course I didn't.  I was never so glad for a week to be over but nope things got bad on Sat.  Jeff was walking from the living room to the kitchen when all of sudden he went to his knees.  He had such pain, he couldn't move and we had to get his cane, which we had to buy after Tuesday.  Which kind of stunk because we didn't get to go to a cookout because of the pain.  Hopefully this week starts off better today.