Pushover

There are days when I feel like myself and my family are gigantic pushovers.  One: Why does everyone assume that is ok to make arrangements and change them and it will be ok with us and when we have other plans they are mad but won't change to accommodate us.  Two: Make plans with one of the kids' mom and then decide to include us in it afterwards. It is a little bit of burden on us because this child lives on hour away and our routine changes when she spends the night but nobody really cares about that but me I guess. Three: I don't want to go to Florida to help my sister out because she can't handle her newborn and toddler. She new her husband travels for work when she got pregnant. I am very annoyed by my mom and my sister. My mom because she is trying to make me fell guilty because I am not going so she thinks she has too. No she doesn't my sister can learn to deal on her own. I did this one month after Ethan was born for almost a year.  My sister because she thinks she can't do it. If this was what her thought was prior to this, then why the hell did she even get pregnant. Done with the rant!!!!

Forever since I have been on here

It has been forever since I have been on here. I am going to start with the most recent events and go backwards. I have decided that I wanted to lose weight. As of today, I have lost 20 lbs, 2in around my waist, and 3 in from my hips. I am very excited about this. I have set little goals in place to hit my main goal. I would like to get down to 130 pounds. My first goal is 170. Only 10 pounds to this goal but I have a feeling this will be tough. I have decided that now I am eating healthy I have to start exercising. So I am now adding 10-12 minutes a day on the treadmill.  People ask why I want to do this their are two reasons: 1) so i can keep on with Ethan and 2) I want to look I did when I married Jeff.

At the end of November, 3 teens in our community died in a car accident.  This my whole family so much. 2 of the boys were very close to my oldest. It is very weird to have kids in our house and not to see their faces in the group. Jayson is having a hard time dealing with it. He always fought the rules but now it is even worse. Last night was News Years and we went out to dinner but had to come home because he felt he was entitled to go out. I thought my husband was going to kill him. We haven't been out in months. The counselor says it going to get worse before gets better but I think it is already there. I can't wait for real life to hit Jayson on the head and he wants us to bail him out. He takes us for granted and expects to do whatever and gives us no credit or concern. It annoys me to no end. That is the end of that rant.