Happens in Threes

We have suffered a loss in our circle of friends this morning. While I didn't know this person, his wife at one time was a good friend. The circumstance behind his death is a little iffy but it's just another visitation we will have to go to. My hubby says things happen in threes, so what exactly will be third is a little scary to me. We just had a thing of threes happen the first part of december and now this. It seems a little to weird for me.

Memories

This for myself and friends who have lost loved ones over the years. I have lost both of my grandfathers and my aunt whom I dearly miss very much. I sometimes wonder if what I am doing measures up to what they think of me. I look at my little boy and can't believe that they aren't here to see him grow up. I have a friend whose sister passed away in 1992 and know that the family still misses her greatly because she was lost at such a young age. I can still remember being with Celeste and Tomas and knowing that my sister was right there with me helping Crystal get through this. And now a very close friend of mine lost her dad last night. It was very hard on them because one moment they thought they could do something and the next moment there was nothing. All of you are in my thoughts today because it seems like this time of the year is the hardest for all.

What a day!

This day... where to start. I am going to start with tonight and work backwards. I was sitting in the living room and happened to look up at the dining room and saw a bat flying in it and then leave toward the kitchen. I called Jayson down and tried to find but we can't. My brother and father are getting a kick out of this and my husband couldn't believe that I called him about a bat. I have everybody in stitches over this. I am not sure how well I will sleep tonight.

Work sucks right now. I constantly feel like my boss is out to get me. Lately it seems like one little thing after another with her and she just doesn't come talk to me about it. She sends emails that are very mean(not really the word I am looking for but can't place the one I want). I just want to find another job and leave. I am getting sick of many of the people there and don't feel like I fit in much.

The road were horrible today and many times I thought I was never going to make it home. I just want my husband to come home and my dog to come back. I miss him very much and would feel better if the dog was here when Jeff is gone. My life feels like it is upside down all the time.

Weather

It took me 45 minutes to get to work this morning. The main highway was a complete sheet of ice. The trucks hadn't even left the shed this morning when I left for work. This day seemed to go on forever. The kids were antsy and the concert practice seemed to take forever this today. Jayson and Ethan got out early because they thought the weather was going to get worse but it didn't. It just rained. That was a fun drive home. I freaked myself out because I thought the rain changed to snow suddenly but it was just a mirage. They redid some of the road that I take and the new part looked different then old one. I am driving my parents old van and it seems to pull to the right and it is driving me crazy. As I am typing this, it is raining outside again. Later it is suppose to be ice and snow. We could have up to 5-7 inches. I hope that it either snows a lot or it doesn't get cold enough to turn the rain to ice. My boss is notorious for not calling school, so we what will happen tomorrow.

What else can really go wrong this week

So i was having a good day yesterday. I went out to mom's to help her decorate and did a little cleaning for her. They took me uptown for lunch and Ethan actually behaved. I came home and did some odds and ends things around the house and then Alyssa wanted to come stay, so I was going to pick her up. When I left to go, I heard a pop and the freon hose blew, so guess what no van. I had to take Rich's car to get Alyssa and then had to go back out to mom and dad's and get their extra van. After that, Ethan decided to be a pill all night. I have spent the morning cleaning this huge house and doing laundry. I am getting Jeff packed and will miss him incredibly. I am hoping that this week goes by fast and nothing big happens.

My dog ran away

I am just wondering how much else can go wrong this week. Last night my dog ran away. I wish that he would come back home. It's scary because he did this four years ago and was gone for 6-8 weeks. I have called the cops to let them know and the vet. I alerted everybody on facebook. I just feel bad because it is so weird around our house with him gone. Ethan asked why he ran away and when he was coming back. He was a very said little boy this morning. We have had this dog for 7 years and it just doesnt feel the same with him gone.

Warrensburg

Once again my husband has to leave for the place for entire week. I was hoping that we wouldnt have to go through this again. I absolutely dislike it when he goes away for one night much less a week. It turns the whole house upside down. Ethan doesn't do change well and he is constantly asking for Jeff. Jayson could have a good week or a bad week depending on what is going on. I am sure that this will be a difficult one seeing that lately he thinks he can do whatever he wants and has had a major attitude since he found his mom. Oh joy, oh joy. Right now it just seems like my whole life is going in the wrong direction or everything is just going wrong. Which is another post for another day.

Doctors

My random thought of today has to deal with doctors and their offices. In September I got sick and the dr put me on biaxin and then my period started. Well, with my period came some tenderness(raw) and it hurt. I didnt put two and two together until this last time. Right before thanksgiving, i went into the dr again and she gave me biaxin and it happened all over again. I made the connection. So today I called my ob/gyn because it hurts alot down there when i go to the bathroom. I wanted to schedule an appt, but no I have to leave a message for the nurse and probably won't here from her until who knows when. Why is it they can't just schedule an appt?

Jeff and I have been together for 8 years in those eight years Jayson's mom has come and gone and never really been apart of his life. In the last 4 years she has completely disappeared until this last weekend. While on facebook this weekend he found his mom. I am slightly annoyed by this and it feels the entire dynamic in the house has changed. I have been the one to deal with anger, frustrations, grades, anything and everything but never am I given any appreciation about this. He always thinks I am out to get him. We were finally starting to get along and now I have a feeling that is going to go down the drain. I am very frustrated with everything. I wish she would have just stayed buried and things would have continued on as they were.